Natascha Artworx

looking back at the past 12 month i have to say: it was the hardest challenge i ever had in my life. i am not quite thru this valley of shit, but i see the light, i am almost there. life will be good again.

the shit started in may 2009, i got terrible pain in my back, so bad i wasn´t able to do my job at the kindergarden anymore. i went from doctor to doctor. they didn´t find what caused the pain. the pills they gave me where useless, the shots they gave me where doing nothing...the pain was not going away, it got worse. my leg was "out of order" i was hardly able to walk...and doctors told me it was psychosomatic.

hell! i don´t have this fucking pain in my brain! i went to the shrink but i felt so badly wrong sitting there with a guy who doesn´t really care about me...i have friends i can talk to, i thought , what am i doing here? sure i have some issues, but they are not related to my back.

then finally one doctor made a CT and found out that i have a very badly slipped disc in my spine that hurts the nerves...or so, i´m not a doctor...

this is it, my bad back:

i was kind of glad to know now what it was, to be absolutely sure that i´m not crazy or that i do not have cancer, because that was one of the scary thoughts wandering thru my brain...they don´t find out , what if i have cancer?

yes, stupid, i know....but this pain is so bad, really...like knifes cutting in your veins...even if you do not move...

well, then i had to go to surgery in november 2009. yes, gladly everything went well. thank god. the beast of pain was leashed.

now i´m recovering since then...a lot of shit also happened at my work...very complicated stuff, too much for the web and i´m not quite sureif i´m allowed to talk about it at all.

fact is, i am broke. hahaha, yes i know this is not new to you, but more broke than before which i didn´t know was possible but it is.

i hope to work until the end of this month i a new kindergarden with older kids i don´t have to lift up and carry around, i´m looking forward to it . i need some regular life now! a regular income. i lost so much money in the past month because i wasn´t able to work. yes health insurance is good here in germany, better than in some other places, but it´s still bad if you loose 200,- € or like now 400,- € every month.

but it will be better, i hope.

on the art side: i cancelled the childrens book project because my brain wasn´t able to create something nice and pure and innocent. my brain was to busy with unlikely stuff.

i will soon create a new DIY ArtBook together with my dear friend sunflowerdagger. it´s all in my brain but it´s not ready yet.

i need a new printer, my printer is too old.

i´ll paint a big canvas for a customer in the usa soon, i´m excited and i wanna start!!!

but i have no car so i still wait for a friends reply if she helps me to buy the huge canvas and transport it to my home...

the biggest challenge will the packing and shipping rbing, but later to that...

ignore typos and wrong english, i´m german

i thank everyone who lifted me up with nice comments

and i thank everyone who supported and bought my art and trusted in me.

thank you from the bottom of my ♥

so...physical therapy...finally. it took much too long but now i finished my first of three week therapy and it is so good! it feels great to learn how to do this and that, to listen to the body and to reset it. the muscles are weak...everywere...i´ve been at home since october, that´s a long time of doing almost nothing physical...at first i wasn´t able because of the pain then i wasn´t able because of the surgery and the fresh wound/scar and then we had iced roads during the extra long wintermonth and i didn´t dare to walk outside...so i did not move very much. and sure this is not good. i am so weak...or i was because this one week really made me feel better. i have gym lessons and relax lessons, they put me in the water every day...i love water i could stay there all day :). it´s cool. and it´s good to meet people with similar problems and to meet new people. i like that. the lunch we get there is good and the coffee is affordable and good,too. what more could i want?

so, i hope to be near to my old self soon and to work for money soon because you can imagine what a half year of not working does to your wallet...it´s bad, very bad...but i hope i can fix this as soon as i am fixed.

another thing is the artlife, i did sell posters. that was good.one poster got lost in the mail, i will send a new one out as soon as a miracle happens and i have some money left. that´s not so good. i wasted money...for the production, for the shipping...but that´s the risk you take...art is hard

i made album artwork for the independent band THE MERCURY VEIL  but i´ll not upload it anywere until they released the album. if you check out their myspace you can see they used a draft i made for the album artwork.

and if you live in the georgia area you should go and see them play! next shows are may 24, 2010 9pm at Caledonia Lounge in Athens / Georgia and may 29 2010 8pm at Rockfest in  Danielsville / Georgia .

next thing is, i´m still working on my next DIY ArtBookProject and i need your help. you can get a bigger/better view by clicking at the little twitpics ...

and some work in progress, i ripped an old book and i don´t really know where this leads me to...i´ll just flow

sorry for the crappy camera work...this camera really sucks

see you ♥

i changed everything here again...but i´m still not happy...i need a new pc and a new graphic programme...then i might be able to learn the things i want to know...well, until this happens i try to make it nice here with the simple stuff i can...

i´m not a webdesigner, i´m just a freak and i´m learning by doing...what i want? well, a little piece of art cake i guess.

i met awesome people online, talented and full of art ...when i entered the net in 2008 i entered art again. i didn´t know what to do with it until i finally had internet. i still can not believe that i waited so long to get it...how stupid i was

i love social networx. twitter is my favorite one ...it´s so much fun and information...i made a little twitter cartoon the last days because the RT of a friend made me laugh.

click @ the pic

and yes i know now that the shirt is not right...but hey...it´s a cartoon...

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my health is still not the way it should be and a lot of other stuff is hard to take at the moment but i believe it will get better...someday.

i made a new mermaid for my series...i guess it will be a serie...because she always comes back to me.

well...enough for now...and before i forget....you should visit my zazzle shop

i added some new shirts

ok...that´s it now...i hope to hear from you and see you wear my angel

get one! zazzle prints are very good and long lasting.

you will not find this design in any other store because i made it...if you do, please report me.

love you,

natascha

from nov. 6 until dec. 5 2009 people came from Germany, The United States, The United Kingdom, New Zealand, Australia, Canada, Italy,The Netherlands, Portugal, Ukraine, Finland, Belgium, Lithuania, Costa Rica, Saudi Arabia and France visited this website.

i also created a PORTAL for all the important links...please tell me, if this makes the navigation here easyer or not...;)

and i created a testimonal page . so if you are a happy customer of my art, please please don´t hide...write me some nice words...remember: noone goes into an empty store...spread the word

love

♥ Natascha

i just want to thank all my online friends for the well wishes, the support and love they gave me!  

all your nice words made me strong and helped me thru this surgery time.

everything went well...the hospital was great, everyone was nice...i had a two bed room with free tv and the food was ok, too.

i have no big pain, only the scar on my back itches and scratches all the time and i can´t shower yet...that´s aweful...

i can not wash my hair...good that noone sees me...lol

another thing is:

the art books i send out to my dear customers finally start to arrive overseas...after almost two weeks

well friends, i have my surgery date now. it´ll be on november 17th...

they will cut me open and drill a hole into my spine to pull out the squeezed and damaged disc.

sounds gross...

money situation is still tight, health insurance didn´t pay in time.

you know? here in germany , if we get sick we get our money from our work for 6 weeks and

after that we get about 75 % of our last money from the health insurance company.

sounds good first but isn´t that easy at all...maybe we´re spoiled.

i´m glad to have that health insurance but i also was very angry at them last week....

it is as always...as long as you pay and you are healthy, everything is fine and they are nice. then you get sick,

after years and years of not beeing sick (actually i´ve never been sick that long before)

and they try to fool you. 

i am not afraid of the surgery, as i said...it is the € stress that worries me.

if that wouldn´t be i could say: life is good....well i have to work on it...i can not work in my job , but i can make art...

a lot of people told me i could make a shit load of money out of it...

anyone here to teach me how the hell i should do that :tongue:?

someday i will make a living of it.

yesterday someone told me: live your dream...

i do...i do

because besides all the real life shit that is going on, my online public art life is growing and

i meet more and more interresting and awesome people online, artists and artlovers and

that is wonderful and makes me very happy.

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here are the good news (after ranting out the bad):

* i gave an interview for Silverthorn Press and you can read it here in the category "outside the frame"  http://www.silverthornpress.com/id72.html

i met corbin silverthorn (yes it is his real last name! ) at twitter. you should check out his website,

he writes about magic, elfs, vampires, mysteries and...art. that´s how we came together.

he asked me for an interview and if he could feature some of my pieces.  

that was my first interview and...very exciting :D...

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*i made a free postcard give away to my twitter friends and they twittered the arrival.

i love to see how my little art seeds spread around the world.

it is funny, that it seems like the usa is my main market.

(the pictures are twitpics, click at them and you´ll get a bigger view)

"I got my @NataschaArtworx postcard today, yay!!"

"My art postcard from @NataschaArtworx Thank you! It's beautiful. :)"

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and a link to tweetphoto, i didn´t find an embed code there.

"I got my postcatd today! My favorite pic of urs. Thanks!"  http://tweetphoto.com/zjslasif

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*i sold a big poster, found a great poster print servbice, good paper and excellent colors...almost better than the original...:wink:

the poster looked so great ...it was delivered and the customer framed it. 

+my printer ran out of ink and when i finally had some i printed and printed

i created art calendars , they are in my webshop and they are limited, if you want one, tell me fast!

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*i finished, published and sold my first DIY Art Book .

you can preview the book here

http://ww2.yuwie.com/profile/pictures/album.asp?id=965532&aid=29159

please read this post about my book from Julie M. Tate who contributed with her writing and art to the DIY ArtBookProject.

http://www.devilgossip.com/2009/10/30/you-own-all-that-is-diy-the-burden-and-blessing-of-being-an-artist/

i cannot write that any better and this article is so good, so please read it and check out her other posts , writings and art. 

she did send me scents, perfume oil...it smells wonderful, i love it...she will sell these in stylish little deo-ish flakons (damn...is this still english?...). and you have to purchase her self published chapbook "the rough chronicles of bipolar romance" , i read it and i love it! 

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you can purchase my self-published, self-printed, made with love DIY ArtBook here 

http://natascha-artworx.webs.com/apps/webstore/products/show/992355 for only $10,- and FREE international shipping !

for those who purchased the book: i did send them out yesterday 

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i will keep you updated with everything, this turned out to be the longest blogpost i ever wrote...

see ya 

♥natascha

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1.

yesterday amanda palmer tweeted my AFP artwork.

http://twitgoo.com/42fzm

she owns the original,

i gave it to her when i was lucky to attend a ninja show in my hometown hamburg.

lucky me also got an email from her saying

"I LOVE THIS a lot.

thank you!!!!! you were really, really sweet."

sigh...;)

2.

you will soon be able to read an interview of me at Silverthorn Press .

i met the author corbin silverthorn (what a cool name!) met at twitter and he asked me if i would like to contribute to his ezine...sure!

wow, this was the first time someone asked me questions about me and my art...i felt so important...lol. and it was pretty tricky...

i´ll let you know when it is published.

3.

my artistic friend julie m. tate mentioned me and my spine

in her awesome blog Gossip [&] the Devil.

thank you dear, your spine looks pretty bad, too...

N.

well, it is not so easy..i will have the surgery in two or three weeks.

i don´t have to pay the surgery i have health insurance, but i am going to have less money than before (because i can´t work) and even before it wasn´t enough...

i have work for sale here

http://natascha-artworx.webs.com/purchaseoriginalart.htm

i also do custom work

http://natascha-artworx.webs.com/apps/photos/photo?photoid=44943844

all i need is a photo of yourself, your love, your kid

http://natascha-artworx.webs.com/apps/photos/photo?photoid=36114950

your house, your pet etc...

i´d love to work with musicians and design album art or other promotional web stuff

if you are interrested, write me  artworxlover at googlemail dot com

BTW:

i thank you all for all the nice words, blessings and compliments about my work...

love and nothing but love to you

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